Well, well, that was hell. You know, nobody said this would be easy. You know that feeling when you are at home and you know you have to get to the gym but you just feel like a ton of bricks. Then, you get started with your workout and things start to feel a little better, bit by bit until you feel like you can conquer the world? That isn’t happening to me anymore. Maybe it is because I let myself go so bad and I have to rebuild my strength, because I tell you, I felt like a ton of bricks the whole way through! It is frustrating to go from being highly fit to unfit and then start all over again. I am frustrated with myself, but I will not beat myself up. I’m not sure if anybody has suffered severe depression before, but I think the tail end of that last episode is dragging on me. The only thing left to do is to blow through it. Eventually fitness will win out and I will be back baby back. Sticking with the plan sam!
Anybody else out there ever feel this way? Ever suffered a depression?
I’ve done it! All obsolete emails, gone. All unfinished blogs and unused accounts, gone. I have chosen a focus, I’m not sure why I didn’t think about this before. I have always had a love of fitness, well, in between bouts of depression. This blog is a great way to keep me motivated and accountable. Fitness helps my mood to stabilize and I feel all around wonderful when I am taking care of my body, mind and soul.
This blog is my home base. My diary. As someone suffering from bipolar disorder it helps me to write down my thoughts and to have a regular plan and schedule. Taking care of my mind and spirit through meditation (and other means that are yet to be explored throughout this journey) and my body through a fitness plan. I am posting my plan, my goals and my progress here, good or bad.
I have decided to start with a 30 day challenge. I have already posted my starting photo (It was hard for me to do because I am not happy with my weight right now, but I am devoted to the plan). There, I will also post my weekly workouts with a starting photo for the week on each page. Calorie intake for the days will also be included. I have written my goal calorie intake for now, but will update my actual intake which I will track using “My Fitness Pal“, an app for Android or iPhone.
My starting date for this plan is December 26, 2014. Wish me luck!